Hello, my name is Eva and I live in Cohocton, Ny. I am going to be 40 yrs in Sept and have three children 12g,16g, and 17b. I stumbled on ur web
page and it really gave me SO MUCH HOPE AND INSPIRATION.. I have had a very troubled life from the time I have been born everything from
sexual abuse from my father and brothers til the age of 11 starting at age 2, rape, drugs, permiscuity,a very severe physical relasionship with my
husband ( I had him arrested and he had to go to anger management, which has changed him) but, I messed up again with being addicted to
perscription opiets, xanax, and also have Adult Add... put in a home, made to have to do things I never wanted to. I have never been able to allow
myself be loved, even though that is what I have always wanted. But it seemed when I found it I was so scared of allowing someone to get soo
close and hurt me more. So then I would do something to cause issues that alot in my eyes r so unforgiveable and my husband throughs them in my
face.. He has a job that he travels around state to state for 21 days on and then comes home for 5 days and leave me to do all for me to do. I drink
alot and I feel like such a failer in my life. I have never been able to keep a job for very long. I then had to deal with loosing my grandmother, my
father and mother all within 1 yr.. I had to take care of my parents while they were sick. they both were diognosed with cancer at the same time,
father with prostate and mother with forth stage pancreatic. My father passed first and mom lasted a yr. I gave up my job an all moved in my family
with her so I could take care of them. Out of 5 older siblings I was the only one to take on the issue. I have died 3 times of accedental overdose. I
am currently still on all my meds and looking for a rehab. but finances are holding me back. Also after my mother 2 wks later I found out my
brother who molested me did much worse to my son startin at age 7 till I found out, he was11 when we found out and then pressed charges. He also
did the same to my other nephews 3 of them.. well he only ended up with 2 concurrent 10 yr sentences an that means he only has to do 10 yrs and
get out. I just feel like there has always been dark enities around me and now it is attacking my family. My two older ones are into drugs and dont
believe in God. but my youngest and I and my husband do..I know he can heal me but, I have been praying for help myself for yrs and would be so
eternally grateful if u could put me and my family on your praylist for some peace and I would like to have confidence to be able to do something
with my life that my kids and my husband and I can be proud of. I am so lost and confused and my husband told me if I dont go to rehab within a
month he is leaving me... I checked in all and my insurance covers most but I have a 7000 deductable. I would love to have some protection prayed
for my family and I ... I have no where else to turn to my family doesnt care and my husbands family has never accepted my kids or myself.. All
you wonderbeautiful people that have a great conection with the Great Lord if uyou could just say a small prayer for my family... anything would
be so gratefully appreiciated... May all your prayers and hopes of the Lord find you and make it all right...God Bless all... Sorry so long.. I just feel
like I have hit a brick wall... I need direction and finaces to be able to go to rehab to get well and show my children nomatter wht u go through
anyone can pull through it all with the faith and prayers to the Lord.. Expecially with the prayers of such a wonderful God believing souls..... thank
you all sorry so long....